I’m back, God. I have time now. I’m not rushed. I don’t have to leave for work or for an appointment. I expect I’ll be awake for another hour this evening, so if you are available and want to talk, I would love to connect with you again to finish off this morning’s talk.
If I am available and want to talk? Oh, My child, I am always available. I love you. I always want to talk with you. You are My daughter, My creation, the desire of My heart. You are such a being of delight to My soul. I want you in My life all the time, not just for a few minutes every day or when you think you can find some time or when you are desperate because of some challenges you are facing.
I Will Never Leave You
I have told you before that I will never leave you or forsake you. (The Bible, Joshua 1:5, NIV) Do you know what it means when I say I will never leave you? You are never out of My mind, you are never out of My sight. No matter where you go, how you act, what you do, you are My child. I care so deeply for you that you cannot even imagine what that means. Inside of My being is a sense of overwhelm at times as I live with the love I have for you that you are not ready to accept. I yearn for you to connect with Me. I wait patiently every day, throughout the day, every moment that you lose sight of Me, for you to turn back toward Me.
And when you do turn back – for a minute, an hour, a day – I am as excited to have you back in My presence as you are excited to connect with your own daughter who lives so far away. Wrong! I am more excited than you could ever be. You think you discovered the meaning of love when you had a child. It grew deeper as your daughter grew and through the years, in spite of some heartbreaks and deep pain, you didn’t stop loving your child.
My love for you began before you can even imagine. It began before you were conceived, before you were born, before you told Me you wanted to be one of My followers. My love for you was planted within the deepest part of My being from time immemorial. I know, you want to ask Me what that means, how I could plant inside Myself the seed of love for you from eternity and know that My love will continue through eternity, never-ending. You can’t understand it. I know, even as I share these thoughts with you, your mind is not able to grasp what I am saying. I don’t negate your ability or intelligence. How could I? I gave them to you. But as I have told you before, I am God, you’re not, so there are many things you are unable to comprehend.
I Want You to Know Me
I will never withhold Myself from you. The more you come to Me, in sincerity, trying to connect with Me, to accept Me as Your Father, the more I will open Myself to you. I am willing to open My heart to give you a glimpse of everything I am, but I am so complex that it will take eons of time for you to really get to know Me. So I am looking forward to the eternity we are going to spend together, when we can indeed “walk and talk as good friends should and do”, just like the words of the song.
Just as you breathe deeply to try and fill up your whole being with a sense of who I am, I ache for that to happen. I want you to know Me. As you know Me more, as you come to terms with the life I have let unfold for you, as you forgive yourself and others for all the hurts and pain that have happened in your life, you will become more whole. Gradually, as you turn your face to the Son, My Son, you will reflect the light of being in the presence of your Creator, the light of love, the love of your Maker, your Father, your Healer. You will become whole as I designed you to be.
My Purpose Is Love
You will become one with Me in purpose. God is love. Yes, I am indeed love. My whole purpose is to be love. And that will become your purpose in a way that you have never experienced before. You think that you understand love. My child, I tell you kindly, I tell you gently, I do not tell you to offend, but you don’t understand love. You have such a limited picture of what it means. I don’t blame you for that. You haven’t experienced a lot of love, in human form, in your life. It’s hard to connect to something that isn’t tangible. But even if you had experienced wonderful relationships those are just a tiny hint of what could be and what will be if you allow Me to live through you. I am so eager to breathe My love through you, like the illustration I gave you this morning of arteries flowing with blood, carrying nutrients and oxygen and enabling life to continue. Let Me take the life blood, the blood of love, the blood of Jesus and allow it to flow freely through you. It will carry the oxygen of life, what you need to live – love, only love.
You know the song, “All You Need Is Love.” (The Beatles) People don’t realize how close to the truth that is. But they are still singing about superficial love, the love between humans that is tinged with self-centeredness, not the love I have that has no restrictions, no barriers that set up walls or fences. I sense even as you listen to My heart and type these words, you can’t grasp the depth of My love. You can’t even scratch the surface.
If My love were compared to the deepest ocean depths, as it often is, you would still be floating on the top of the water with your head sticking out, occasionally dipping it under with your snorkelling mask on and gazing down to see what you could see.
Even in the clearest water you wouldn’t see much deeper than 20-30 feet. And that’s how you can compare your vision of My love to its reality. Just below the surface, your understanding gets murky. You see glimpses, like you see glimpses of beautiful fish darting about. But that’s as far as you can see right now.
“Now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face.” (The Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:12, KJV) But keep spending time with Me and you will see more and more. The reflected light of My Son’s face will shine down into the darkness of the water and break through with rays of beauty. That light will gradually penetrate deeper and deeper and as it does you will see more and more of My love, just as you would see more beauty in the water if you submersed yourself with the proper diving equipment.
God, how can I feel more of that deep love You have for Me?
Do you see the bubbles making their way closer and closer to the top of the water? Even before you are ready to immerse yourself fully in My love, diving deep, I release bubbles of love, hints of what wants to explode in your face:
I want to speak it aloud to help you understand, but My voice is louder than thunder and your eardrums would burst if I spoke passionately about My love for you. So I whisper in your ear. I speak gently about that deep love – in little things I open Myself to you, kind words, beauty in nature, something unexpected that brightens your day. Every day, every moment of every day there is something staring in your face and whispering in your ear and a feeling you get that is a taste of My love for you. So, be grateful for everything that comes into your life.
Who Are You, God?
God, it seems like so many people today don’t recognize You for who You are – they talk about the universe giving them everything, filling them with light and love. I don’t interpret things in the same way. But sometimes I wonder if I am too limited in my thinking. You are omnipresent, everywhere, all knowing, all powerful. Do people use language that I don’t relate to but still connect to You as the source of all that is good? Is it just that we are speaking different languages as we continue our individual spiritual journeys? Maybe something to talk about another day?
But for today, this all so hard to comprehend. I should be so filled up with emotion about who and what You are but I’m not. As I write this, I wonder if I am simply in a peaceful state or if I am devoid of feelings. Sometimes it scares me to see how unfeeling I can be. I don’t want to be that way. I need divine intervention to change that, God. You are divine. You have the power. I want you to change me more and more into Your likeness. Now that I am beginning to grasp it, I think I am asking you to shape me into a being that is love itself. But, in some ways, that’s even more scary that the thought of having no feelings.
Heart Love… Incomprehensible Love
Yes, I’m starting to get it now, God.
Jesus, conceived in the womb of a woman, placed there by Your hand, lived in perfect communion with You. That communion translated to a living human-divine being walking on earth, living as total love, no selfish thoughts, no rude or cruel words, no hateful looks or painful touch. In spite of all the hurt, He walked confidently in a place of peace and love at all times. Yes, He spoke firmly to those who were the antithesis of love, like the Pharisees, those who instead of living in Your image, attempted to destroy that image of You in their attack on Jesus. But even then, Jesus loved. He never let go of that love.
In the final moments on the cross, He cried out with a heart broken and with love pouring out of that heart for those who rejected His love, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” He wasn’t asking You to forgive them only because they physically tortured Him and emotionally abused Him and spiritually shut Him out. He was asking you to forgive them because they didn’t grasp the significance of turning away from a love that is incomprehensible.
They didn’t know what they were doing when they didn’t accept the greatest gift that could be offered, total acceptance, total forgiveness, total love so amazing that angels turned away in shame, shame that the Lover of all lovers was spurned by those to whom He gave that unconditional love, everything that He was and lived.
I was there. I was one of those who didn’t understand that love. I didn’t accept what He was offering to me. And that You, His Father, hidden in the blackness of the cloud, were One with Him in purpose. Incomprehensible, heart love! I still don’t understand it very well, but I am open to accept the love You want to give me as much as I am capable of receiving it. Someday I want others to say that, like You and Your Son, I too am love.